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Mar 16, 2021

Welcome to part 2 of Boldly Into the Darkness, with the widowed author of Boldly Into the Darkness Autumn Toelle-Jackson.

We pick up right where we left off from part 1. If you haven't listened to part 1, please do that first otherwise you'll miss a critical part of Autumn's story.

In this episode, we examine self-imposed grief starvation and Autumn's shocking weight loss.

Intimate suicide discussion. Do you have permission to live a life well-lived?

Why killing Grandma is funny.

The crazy giant hole in Autumn's memory.

Autumn discovers a fountain of hope and healing from an often misinterpreted ancient wisdom.

Functioning with chaos: The most important thing you can control even if you can't control anything else.

Stupid shyt people say to you.

Why do funeral homes dim the lights?

Why it's okay to be mad at God (only works if you believe in God).  

Is there an easy way to get out of love where everybody ends up being happy with it? And so much more.

Bulletinis-Too Many!

  • Crazy Giant Memory Hole
  • The Stoics (not a punk band)
  • Can You Control You?
  • Small Town Quirks
  • Stupid Shyt People Say
  • Closure? LOL
  • Molded by Tragedy
  • Why Funeral Homes Dim the Lights
  • God's Plan Wasn't Mine
  • Be Mad at God
  • Killing Grandma Ruth
  • Not the Same as Suicide
  • My Recognizable Car
  • Nowhere to Hide
  • Escape to The Coast
  • The Pleasing Room
  • Nature Claims
  • How to Stall Your Grief
  • Age of Indestructibility
  • Choosing Happiness
  • Fear of Pain
  • No Easy Way Out of Love

Thank you for listening. Join us for part 2 of 4 with Autumn Toelle-Jackson.

Winner of the Illumination Book Awards' 2021 Silver Medal.

Autumn's memoir Boldly Into The Darkness: Living with Loss, Growing with Grief & Holding onto Happiness can be purchased at her website (Includes grief resources as well as merchandise and the book.


Paperback: Available at your local independent bookstore.

Also available through Amazon.  

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